Trip.

Yay, reach the day to hong kong.
excited but then abit unhappy.
i also dunno why.

so i think of bringing my lappy go.
but its heavy haaah.
so never bring adi.
will post blog when i m back :D

will be back on 2jan.
celebrate new year in hong kong this year :)
i will miss you all my dear friends.

wait me back and give u all some sourvenir.
if i got buy! heehehehe...

dun miss me so much hor.
><"

酸。

心还是会酸。

明天去香港了。

要开心丫！

发现12月就多post。

哈哈。

是谁天天在关心我呢？

给我知道，让我谢谢你们丫。

我会加油爬起来的。

－－－－－－－

Accepted.

the picture of us. i will still keep it. its memory.

the love me and you, will always in my heart.

i will start on with my study.

i never know that girl will become his gf now.

boy, i m so trust on u, thats why i never check you who u talking to.

i said i will kill the girl you be with. you noe i wont.

my heart is just that soft. i just need a man that can hold me forever.

you said you can make it. now my heart broken. love is nothing.

20th nov

she just took ur pic secretly.

a girl wont took a guy picture if she dun like him.

hey girl~ do u noe he is mine?

i know now he is urs.

so what?

i love him not becox of he rich? i m rich too duh.

i love him not becox of his face. when we been tgt he is fat~!

i love his everythings.

even his attitude got problem~ i still love him.

even he cant walk or whatever things happen~ i just wanna be with him.

he die~ i can go and die too.

i can do watever things that he wan me to do.

friendship? i can dun need just him.

he dun like my fren? ok fine. i dun chat with them.

whatever he like. i try my best to move in.

i just dun buy my stuff and keep the money just for buy somethings that can be used for him.

i lie my family just because i wanna go his house and hug him sleep.

i cut my hands just because i wanna cook somethings to him.

i simply do my assignments just to go out with him.

i never slept just wanna done my assignment and the next day accompany him.

i m stress and cry at night, who knows? boy, you dun know.

girl, can you do this for him?

hope u will be best compare to me.

treat him nicely.

he is my eveythings. now is your turn to take care him.

i just so think about his feeling, who think about my feeling?

boy, i tell you , she like u, thats why so easy u two can be tgt.

i just can act like seeing ntg.

you said u wont leave me ~ but den now?

i m totally dun trust any boys now.

i just so trust on you.

i hope you die! but how?

i love you deep in the heart.

you treat me like the grass.

just step it when u dun like it.

the girl really that pretty?? fine~ i will be more pretty soon and so soon.

since the guy love pretty girls.

you told me what?

u dun like her, you said her mouth too big and too short.

look like angelababy haven surgery.

what now? too lonely ?

what single life?

for me is to enjoy that no ppl care for me.

now, i never think of finding a boyfriend.

boy is suck. love is suck.

i m so grey.

college life back means night life is coming :)

will be hang out with friends.

i love you all babe.

boy, do you still reading my blog?

i have no idea.

just wanna told you.

bii, i still love you.

in my heart you always the best even you hurting me bad.

i will take care myself.

hope you can be happy always. she can take care you.

maybe the suffer time is over.

i will be finding back you ba.

nobody knows.

for my dream, i wanna be a rich girl that dun need man.

i dun trust boys anymore. its hurt.

1st love, the boy took my 1st kiss just using force. he break with me by chging his num and nvr contact me.

2nd love, the boy lie my love for 9months. i m the 2nd gf of him. and i dun know. i m hurting badly.

3rd love, i tot i m playing with you only, i dun trust love anymore. is you make me trust got true love.

you treat me just like your wife, so that i put in my whole love to you. just think of that you will be my mr right.

trusted you, and now u pull me away from your life.

this is the most hurt ever that i never had before.

is like i m death, if i death also nothing. but i have my family.

its really thanks for your mommy and daddy.

sorry for disturbing. i am fine now.

just i know that this world the best things is family.

and friends.

what is love? i have no idea.

i know when fall, its get hurts.

26th nov

you and her look so close. u just look like single guy.

you make fun of her.

how come i cant see this pic that time? now only i saw it. i do check your wall.

but it nvr pop out and the secretly pic i also cant see. this is fate ba.

girl~ u must take care of him.

care him more.

he love sushi. he love to read a magazine name COOL ( its hard to find )

he love to watch movie.

he love one piece.

he love hype.

he is just a little kid that need you to care him.

sometime he will cry, cox of family things.

the stress of him.

sometimes can annoy him, make something silly make him smile.

his smile is cute :)

all the best.

i will stop blogging about the things me and him.

start my new life without boys.

someone asked me.

if he find me back, will you accept him.

the answer will be " yes ", but i need to make sure he wont leave me anymore.

i noe i m silly.

i m not waiting. just that the feeling is always here.

he is in my heart. i m not crying anymore.

cry is just to release my stress of the truth.

i accepted he had a gf.

i accepted he dun love me anymore.

i will force myself for stop stalking him.

he had his life now. hope he will be happy with his new life.

Moody.

seriously i am moody.

seem like every morning i also in a moody mode.

what happen on me?

my heart is like keep beating faster.

pain.

突然。

突然发现“他”把我跟“他”的照片都删了。

有点不开心。

看来，“他”真的放下了。

想哭泣，但告诉自己不可以。

因为“他”已经放开你的手啦。

而且牵着“她” 的手了。

不知道“他们”相处到如何呢？

希望“他”的脾气不再像以前的“他”了。

我呢？

我反省了下。

我对“他”的关心，变成野蛮了。

我对“他”的宽恕，变成厌倦了。

就是说，别对你的“伴”太好。

他们不会珍惜的。

会珍惜的男生，已经好少了啦。

就好像星光7的孙晓亮。

多么珍惜他的女友啊。

女生啊。

要懂得放风筝啊。

不然就锁不到他了。

想要离开这里一阵子。

回忆。

无意间看到这些照片。

好久了。

我还长发呢～ 哈哈

他变了好多啊。

回忆会让人开心。

我不会再哭泣了。

曾经拥有你可爱的笑容。

他喜欢闻我的头发。

希望你幸福。

我想要到香港读书啊。:)

没标题。

说好了不去stalk，但是我还是做了。

＝＝

我想他应该没在看我了吧。

他说他不爱我的时候都应该放下了吧。

心还是这样。

但是不在哭泣了。

我哭累了，不想让大人们担心我。

好想找个男朋友，但是我的心还有他。

要怎样忘记呢？

他变成了我的最熟悉的陌生人。

我感觉这次真的距离好远好远。

我跟他真的好远。

好熟悉的脸孔，他还是他吗？

他不是爱我的他了，他是爱她的他。

好想问候他，但是我不敢。

我把能跟他联络的都删掉了。

除了facebook

怪我太执着吧。

他跟她相处还蛮好的吧。

希望他幸福吧。

要去香港了，听说会很冷。

妈咪今天就过去了。

我跟我妹星期三才去。

第一次这么独立啊。

哈哈。

这个圣诞不好过。

回忆都浮现了。

终于过去了。开心。

平安夜。

无聊的平安夜。

我妈担心我在kl喝醉，

所以逼我上云顶啊。

可怜的我。

妈咪啊，我真的没什么事了。

放心我丫。

对不起让您担心了。

好闷啊，

就只有我妹还有恩恩上罢了。

朋友都有节目啦。

过后又有多一间房，

所以妹就叫了她的朋友上来咯。

啊。我事最老的那个。

幸好我的样子没那么老，哈哈。

就有人搭讪啊

这是很普通的吧，但是还蛮奇怪的，

那个感觉。

因为我感觉我老啦，给男生搭讪会很奇怪。＝＝

但是搭讪的都不帅。

能说的就是没有帅哥啦。

唉！

云顶的倒数有够怪的。

还以为有烟花，原来都没有。

好无聊啊。

12点了都好像没什么反应。

闷死。

但是我们还是没有睡觉。

玩card玩到8am

有够厉害的，我们没玩钱的。

哈哈。

过后才睡那3个小时就起来了。

冷到我半死。

突然想到“他”

我有够白痴的。

想“他”来做么？“他”这样伤你。

傻的我。

我还戴lens戴了33个小时，

还好眼睛还好好的呢，没事。

嘻嘻

好了，看图说故事吧 :)

最后

祝：圣诞节快乐！

倒霉。

好倒霉喔。

今晚要去1u唱k的，

但是载了moon，就被一个马来婆撞了。

撞了她还要走！

我们就去问她咯～

她就说：budak budak ini ada license keh?

我们生气到！

还说吐我们口水，说是我们的错。

是她gostan没看车叻！

过后她还说我们没家教！

fuck她啦！moon就说：你就是没家教！

好凶喔今天的她。佩服的。

然后要去警察局，但是我跟我妹是坐另一辆车啊。

pipi走太快，我们失散了。

就这样我跟妹就在1u等他们来唱k咯。

就这样等了好久。有1个小时多了。

好恐怖啊！

终于，pipi来载我们啦。

我们就去了警察局。

看到那马来婆就生气！她们在哭＝＝

那警察又凶我们。

看到就讨厌。

过后那警察突然又没凶了。

我们还跟他谈了一下。

表示我们的不满。哈哈

最后，我们唱歌变去警局了啦。

闹到230am才回家。

要睡觉了，明天还要早醒呢。

去云顶啊！倒数倒数！单身的倒数呢，会开心吗？

那就要试下咯。哈哈

妈咪，姑姑，不要担心我了。

我会加油往上爬。

单身还蛮好的，不用报到啦。

自由自在的。

脾气蛮好的我，开始喜欢单身了。哈哈

可以玩。

对不起。

对不起我的家人

很对不起为了我都哭了。

对不起，凯的妈妈。

真的对不起。

梦。

梦啊，别再梦到他了。

谢谢丫。

我快被回忆给逼疯了。

时间快过吧。

回忆！我已经把你埋起来了！

你就别出来啦！

有爱也有狠。

你幸福就好。

为什么每个人都告诉我说

当你跟我一起时，

你就有她了。

不然不会这么快有女友。

但是我不相信你会这样做啊。

这个是迷。

不开心。

Days 20

今天好累，

唱k也会想哭，

我到底怎么了。

我把他送我的一切都放进盒子里了。

我要把我和他的回忆给埋起来。

有谁能了解我的心情呢？

忘记一个你深爱的人，真的好难。

他说他不爱我了，这样的他，还值得吗？

朋友说不值得。

他跟她可能在我跟他一起时已经有东西了。

所以突然的对我冷。

她真的那么有吸引力吗？

我们的感情，原来只有我在乎。

我一直都想煮给你吃啊，想给你个惊喜。

我一放假就学了。但是我只是想给你惊喜。

没想到这样会让你觉得是我的错。

因为没告诉你。对不起。

我没有机会改过，你就把所有的分手责任都给我吧。

你的不快乐也给我吧。

你把快乐带走。我祝福你。

你说我没关心你，那你有想过你有多么的伤害我吗？

谢谢你伤害了我，让我成长。

知道一段感情不能付出所有，否则伤害的还是自己。

谢谢你给我的回忆，跟你一起，我很幸福。

我们真的看了好多的戏喔，戏票我都放进箱子了。

你给我的8颗星星，你因该不记得了。

我也把它放进箱子了。

你给我的bearbear，好多喔。

你给我的卡片，你亲手弄的相架，还有很多很多。

我们回忆我都看了一遍，我没哭。

我感觉幸福。

谢谢你给我的一切。

现在的我，不可以想你的好了。

我只能想你对我的绝情，我才能醒。

你已经不爱我的事实。

你放开我的事实。

你对我厌倦是事实。

奉献你的话：

不要随便跟女生xx。女生爱你才会给你。

要对你说的话负责，如果你玩不起，就不要许下承诺。

好好照顾自己，胖一点会好看点。

最后希望她会对你好像我对你这么好。

如果你找到比我更好的女生，

你要珍惜她。一定要懂得珍惜。

做个好男友，不可以动不动就发脾气了。

不是每个女生可以包容的。

但是我还蛮开心的，你改了很多。

但是嘴巴还是坏，不要乱乱说话了。

我祝福你。

我在加油了。

我会努力的。

做会坚强的我 ，我要把自己养的美美的。

不是为了谁。

而是为了自己。

没有男生，我们女生都可以自己撑。

爱情，有点不敢试了。我玩不起。:)

淇丫淇！ 往上爬丫！

要开学了，早点睡觉咯～

伤

原来真的很难。

说不想，

就真的不想吗？

现在的我就只能默默的支持他了。

我又何必呢？

绝情的你

真的弄痛我了

弄痛得不懂怎样活下去。

昨晚我还奢求可以抱你，

现在的你就只有她可以抱了。

你没有来抱我

你就是真的放下了。

你说你不爱我了。

3年7个月，你就这样放下了。

爱我永远的承诺没有了。

都怪我太宠你了，太爱你了。

什么都包容你，

原来这样会让你厌倦。

你问我，是不是要你跟她分手才收手。

我真的不敢相信你会说这样的话。

你真的爱她吗？

如果一起了。就好好爱她吧。

希望她是真心的。

希望她会很像我这样爱你吧。

疼你，关心你。

爱情不是可已试用的东西。

谢谢你为我改好了脾气。

我相信你曾经真的真的很爱我的。

我相信我是你这一身中你爱过最深的吧。（暂时）

也是最久的一个。

我没做错什么。

没陪你运动真的不是什么理由。

是我太好了吗？弄你没有分手的理由。

所以就用闷了。

现在的我就只能手放开了。

还想问你的是，

如果以后有机会的重来，

你还会这样伤害我吗？

请你想清楚你要的是什么。

我害怕那个痛了。

如果还爱我就回来找我。

我会换我的号码，还不确定。

你的一切我会删掉。

照片我就留下来纪念了。

有机会的话，我们可以谈下天。

朋友可以做。但是我不会约你。

免得你误会我要怎样。

我也因该学着放下了。

谢佩淇！加油！

我会好好的。

原来这才是你。

好累喔。

Days 19

crying to release my stress

thanks for my family and his mom and dad :)

sorry for u bi~

i dun mean to make u feel bad.

i wont find u anymore :)

let us have the time to calm down ourselves.

maybe after the time pass, we still be back together? or best friend?

nobody knows.

i hope u happy.

and i still love u so much.

sorry for not letting u go.

its because i just dun trust you will be so cruel to me.

now i let go le.

cause i m still loving you.

u are right, if i love you, i must let u go

and let you happy.

i will still blogging anyways.

maybe will stop facebook :)

blogging is the way make myself feel better i think.

take care :)

i promise i will take care myself :)

恶梦。

最近每天发恶梦。

今天又来了。

很恐怖。

不懂要告诉谁呢，每次都是告诉他的。

我的妈啊。

我梦到我跟我妹还有enen被坏人看上了。

他们要强奸我们。

不想说了。

真的很恐怖。

很累喔。:(

Days 18

gonna hit to hong kong soon.

i m waiting the day for coming :)

heeeh

29dec to 2jan :)

hmm, he was like going for "keep fit" the whole day.

with his friends.

( Hiking, badminton, swimming and badminton)

hope he never hurt himself.

ok fine! i stalk him accidentally again :D

in daniel profile :)

so today is the last day my babe in malaysia.

and she back adi today.

so now my house left enen and my sister teman me only.

i m fine maybe x.x

i craving for watching TRON~

wish he will be happy :)

i m super tired adi.

4days never sleep well,

sleep at 3 to 4am.

fainted.

Days 17

the mood is like up and down.

what m i thinking?

i have no idea.

just know that

i m very tired today D:

drive for whole day again.

all of them is like coming my house for

poker! drink drink drink !

lols.

moon said if girls drink beer the boobs will become bigger.

lols!

i force myself not to stalk him today.

:)

i did it.

but is accidently saw it in bbm.

he change his pic.

but why its our couple T?

dont he feel weird when wearing it?

but after i think.

the T is expensive.

ofcox he will wearing it and he adi forget me.

lols!

only me the dumbles just dun wanna see everything about him.

i wont wear the T anymore, i think.

its the memory.

i will just keep it :)

do i miss him?

yes, i always do.

i just can wish him happily ever after :)

lmao.

...

U are replaceable? it bothers you because i am not.

You aren't going to find another me.

You can try, but those girls won't compare to me.

One day, you'll realize how much i was there for you when i'm gone.

i dont hate you.

i'm just disappointed you turned into

everything you said you'd never be.

i'm not afraid to try again.

i'm just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.

i'm scare for getting hurt again.

i'm doing my best to forget you,

because it seems you have no problem in forgetting me.

Days 16

i said i stop blogging.

but then,

i adi used to it adi.

so what i have done today?

i was driving for whole day

its really tired :)

good for me.

lols~

erm.

try shisha today.

quite fun after u noe how to suck it

:D

today i very guai.

never drink :)

cox after shisha adi abit blur blur liao =.="

so far.

i still cannot accept it?

hmmmmm...

my heart beat is getting serious.

dunno why.

just beat very fast =.="

siao liao.

what he is doing?

i think he is thinking his "angelababy"

:)

---------------------------------------------------

why m i set as public adi?

becox, its not a secret anymore :)

i just post out my feeling.

i think he will not stalk me anymore :)

Days 15

i will stop blogging adi.

he got a new gf soon

just break up not even 2weeks.

he can forget me and get a new one.

i just cant accept it.

what he is thinking?

he just need a gf for his christmas?

or he adi like her when we still together?

nobody knows the truth.

i m hurting badly this time.

i really hurt.

boys can trust?

u let me deep in trust u.

but u just use ur hand and squeeze it.

u just never think about my feeling.

do u have feeling?

u use the girl to replace me?

u dun love me anymore.

since i cry for so many days

and u never turn back to see me.

what have u done for me?

i will go and play

whatever i like to.

club? pub? drunk?

i love to drink now.

this my new life.

thanks to u :)

dun feel guilty.

as u said.

this is life.

be back urself.

u change after u skinny.

just u dun feel it.

u said u never chg?

thats bullshit.

skinny and dun wan me?

i m too skinny

no body shape?

ok.

go find ur "body shape"

3 years and 7 months.

u can just dun turn back and just watch me cry.

this is love?

do u really love me before?

如果你玩不起，不要随便脱女孩的裤子。

u just so cruel.

hope you will be happy den.

Days 14

like the same, he never find me.

and i find him in the morning by using bbm.

we chat for away.

he still the same, ask me

" we together JYJY :) "

what its mean? hmmm.

going out for drink tonight

at Laundry ( The Curve )

with frens till 4am like this reach home.

the beer is like mixing :)

quite nice to drink,

i mean some of them :)

but i got abit blur after drink . =.="

i do really miss him.

i m unhappy,

thats why i keep feel like going out for drink.

i tot if drunk will be happy?

but not, i miss him more :(

love u my dear.

i still will waiting the day u back.

maybe i chase u back? :D

hearts u lotss.

Days 13

he never find me today.

what he is doing now?

i wondering.

did he miss me?

i miss him much.

force myself not to find him.

will he find me back?

my head is like keep thinking about this question :(

i know i'm not suppose to think this.

but it just keep pop out in my mind.

maybe i m too miss him :(

iloveyou bi.

Days 12

today i get to know his health report.
i really worry him alot.
he bbm me and ask me how are u?
i was like happy but just reply him
i m fine. (actually i hope to said i m not ok and i m missing you)

he told me everythings
that about his health problem.
but he still dun sleep early cox i use to stalk him also.
lols..
i noe that he still stalking me also.
dunno what he is thinking?
hmmm

i know that i m silly that still waiting him
but now,
i wont be just crying and wait him back.
i will make myself prettier and healthier :D
the most important is GAIN FATS.

dear friends.
dun be worry about me..
i m fine :)
i just can said
i still miss him alot
and love him alot.
let go?
it really cant let go now.
i worrying about him.
just so love him.

i found somethings :(

he said : Bro, i am bored in this relationship, i cant stay longer anymore. This is how i feel now.

(December 5)

bored? cant stay anymore?

i do ntg wrong..

why?

i just so that love u.

u said this?

u dun love me anymore thats why u said this :'(

Days 11

今天在mid valley走街。

好多的回忆出现在我脑海

bi,你记得你问我几时嫁给你吗？

当我们经过卖大肚婆的衣店时，你问我几时穿给你看吗？

你问我们几时同居。

你说我就是你的房间的女主人。

你说没有其他的女生可以睡在你的床上。

你说我们注册了就同居。

读完书后。

你说你不会跟我分手，除非我提出。

但是现在的你说我很粘你。

我自问我没有很粘你。

你说对拍拖闷了。

是不是我对你太好了？

没弄你吃醋？

我就像只小猫咪乖乖的待在你身边。

你知道我有多难过吗？

我以为你把我当唯一了，所以我就放心去爱你，

全心全意的爱你，得来的回报原来是被你狠狠的抛弃。

而得到的原因是你闷了。

Ho detto, ah, voi ragazzi siete davvero solo le parti intime?
Il giorno Venerdì,
Ho pensato, è perché è necessario e mi tieni?
Mi chiedi se vuoi, ti do.
Si prega di riflettere attentamente! Perché ti amo! Quindi, solo per voi!
Ma tu farmi questo? !

好了，不想提了。

我也很犯贱。

谁叫我爱他爱到发疯？

还是等着他回来我身边。

我都已经分不清他还爱我吗。

他可以一整天都不找我。

好想他。

他真的都没想我吗？

Days 10

Whole day never find him...

he also...

i really not used to it that he never find me at all.

does him miss me too? just he dun wanna find me?

maybe he is forcing himself not finding me too?

this afternoon my aunty help me count something ( 纸仙 )

she said its really true...

but only can use new card to play this.

so she help me.

i said : will we together back?

den she starting to help me count it.

the answer is yes.

and yet his heart haven stable and he still wanna play.

but his heart still with me.

i dunno wanna trust anot. :(

but i do really love him. even he hurt me before.

i think if he find me back, i will also accept.

but no second hurting.

now, i just can release my stress in blog and also twitter.

i dun wanna let him noe that i m not ok.

i hope he will be happy when i m not beside him.

i will be there for u bi. always.

Days 9

i cry crazy tonight...

i just cant stop crying...

i call him ~ i cry to him... i wanna die !

dunno why i call his mother also...

he just dun turn back for me...

he dun love me anymore maybe :'(

issit i too good for him? that make him feel very sien?

i hope he will back to myside :'(

i m still waiting :'(

his mom came to my house

cox aunty is too worry about me adi..

sorry family and friends...

i make all of u worry me...

i too love him...i just cant live without him...

he make me crazier...

i promise...

i wont cry again...

i hope he will back to myside...

for one day...

i m waiting the day coming...

happy 1314 days :(

love u always.

Days 8

today adi days 8,
he still dun wanna chg his decision..
today he come over my house to eat lunch with me that i cook..
after that we go upstair and talk..
he kiss me and hug me..
i can feel he is still love me..
why he lie himself for leaving me?
its so hurt..

i hug him tight and ask him..
what is ur feeling when i hug u?
he said dun force me..
i m still love u..
just i wanna try to be single and play around..

i ask him will he find me back?
he told me he not sure..
:'(

i ask him are u still love me..
he tell me yes :(

why he so strong with his decision?
i ask him do u think before that u wanna patch back with me..
he say yes,when he having exam he feel lonely..

den why he wanna break with me?
my heart pain..
why he still kissing me and hugging me?
why?
i have alot of why..

how can he kiss a girl that he broke her heart?
did he got the feeling wrong?

i m too good to him...
everyone is like asking me let go..
but i cant
i go everywhere also have a shadow of him...
how could i survive without him beside?
i adi use to it adi that he always beside me...
how about him?
he can leave me like this?
so cruel?

i know he was suffering on his mind to...
but can he dun lie himself and just a reason that wan freedom
den dump me?
dun ever hurt a girl that adi promise to be with her forever...
dun ever break the promise...
dun ever treat a girl like a stuff...
we got feeling!

i really dunno now what m i in your heart
issit a stuff that u miss den find me and need freedom and dump me?
i feel so disappointed on u baby...
i do really love u..
but u dunno how to appreciate what i have done for u..
i treat u as my one and only..
u said so... but now u just dun turn back and just facing to ur freedom...
what ur fren told u?

"hey! u are still young! u wan let ur gf catching u forever meh?"
issit what u wan?
when u hug me...and kiss me... u adi can noe what u really wan..
but...
u dun trust ur action...u just dun wanna think about it...
u dun wanna think about the problem...
what u really wan?
i bet u.. u dunno...

today i did cry...
why m i crying?
i feel so hurt when u are actually hurting urself..
u know? when u thinking like this, u are lying ur feeling...
do u ever think that, i more hurt den u when u hurting urself?

when u promise a things...it cannot be chg..
when u gonna promise something? please! think before u promise whether u can make it onot..
or else dun promise...

i said i will wait u...
i noe u better..
maybe u will not find me back..
but i still wait..
why?
i trust u ~
i trust u are a responsibility man...
hope i never choose wrong ppl
and i trust my eye and ur eye when looking at me...
i trust that u still love me..
i noe i m silly..
thats me when falling to love...

baby, u make colour in my life.
u are the one let me know got true love in this world..
when i dun trust boys, u give me the hope..
ur eye, ur smile wont be fake when we being together..
our memories...
our fate...
i trust our fate wont be so fast end..
u said u will hold my hand till the end..
ur heart, i still can feel it...
i will give u enuf time to play...

Days 7

this morning i send a morning bbm to him
for wishing good luck for his last paper.

so, as usual..i cold to him..
and he called me after he finish K-box with frens..
he talk alot today..
and i reply with very cold.
just like a simple fren.


tml will be meeting him
and cook for him..
hope tml i will be fine and not crying infront of him..
really hope that tml he will hug me and back to me :'(

Days 6

today the whole day he never find me..
i feel so uncomfortable and also sad..
maybe he is busying with his exam...
so i just let him to study..and never find him...
what i feel is ..
i am still hurting. :(


maybe tml he will find me..?
hmmm... hope so :(
because tomolo is the last day of his exam...
he is stress, i know it :(
but i cant care him now :(
its really hard for me to do this (not finding him)


♥ baby, all the best to ur exam ya.. dun be so stress...
just do ur best will be .

happy 3years and 7monthsary baby
--------------------------------------------------------------

today i went out with my frens..
we went to mid valley for movie..
" Due Date"
the movie that baby promise to watch with me..
but i think that, i m not to going out for movie with him..
cause its weird..like i m so love him and we adi break...
and he wanna to be single but i still stick with him ._.

this movie is funny~ i keep laugh non stop :D
after that back home and wait for pasar malam..

moon and melody also got go wor..
so long nvr see them adi...
i know they just wanna accompany me only..
but really thanks...
i m happy u all are here for me...

friends ~ i love u all♥
i m fine now..
what i can said is..
i will wait him to find me back..
how about if he got another gf already?
i trust him..

Days 5

went out with sister and enen today for shopping..
although having shopping but my mind is keep thinking about him.
thats sad case !

after that i force myself to dont find him :(
becox i wanna noe issit he still will miss me..
and check me and care me...

he still got check me in facebook.
today i totally nvr find him..
and just wait him to think about me and find me..
i hope it works ..that can let him think what u actually wan..
i really hope to get him back :'(


so he noe i m lost on the road..
he still care me :)
he teach me...
i noe i shouldnt reply him :(
but ......

this few days..
i dunno why my heart will suddenly beat so fast
and feel abit cant breathing..argh..
what is that feeling?



so night time..
tml is our 3years and 7months anniversary..
he rmb it!
he called me and just wanna tell me happy anniversary..
i m happy about that :D

but den he told me he is very stress :(
my heart is pain to see him like this..
but i cant care him much..
i noe he will feel annoy :(

i do really miss him..
hope he miss me too.

♥*bi, hope u will be fine in ur exam, dun make yourself so stress please..

Thanks to my frens (Ailin,Jeann,Suki,Angel)
for teman me and so happy that u all come my house
just to teman me :) love u all ♥

Days 4

yesterday night i can fall to sleep adi.
maybe i m really tired.
my eye is like dying x.x
so ichy wah~

today what i do is..
erm..i think i m feel better .
i just cry for awhile when he told me
" u know the answer is my last answer adi"
owh~ i cried..
its so cruel..

i do really love him..
my heart is like broken and broken..
he can feel it but he nvr turn back..
i think if i love him..
i must be move forward..
he is still not mature enuf..
he will regret~ for sure..

now let him think wisely..
if the answer still the same?
i will let go...
i will make myself more prettier
make all the boys come over me :D
wahahahaha~


maybe after we broke up
he will find me back?
if i still love him.. i think i will still acept him..
and i hope he will not be broken my heart like this time..
thats really hurt
cox its too sudden that i cant accept for
the reason of " i am sien adi "
boy~ its not a reason...


if u get married ? if u got a baby?
just one word..
I M SIEN ADI
bye baby ,i killed..

if you working?
I M SIEN ADI
u just resign ?

Days 3

昨晚还是一样，哭到睡觉。
就跟他通了电话，我又忍不住哭了。
就这样，445am才睡着。

早上，他主动bbm我呢！
开心，但是眼泪突然流了下来。:/
他问我为什么要这样对自己？
他在关心我呢！他还知道我几点睡呢！

今天，我感觉有点晕。可能我没有睡够吧。
跟了妈妈去pavilion 买东西。
妈咪今天花了不少~
今天的他好像没那么冷了（但还是冷）
他说：i m still take u as my gf.
听了我也不懂要开心还是伤心。
可能是同情我？


晚上有gathering 哦，和中学的朋友。
那我就去找了他一下，给他东西。
他很冷，我感觉我们像很普通的朋友。
我心痛。当说再见时，他没有给我good bye kiss。
我叫了一声bi~ 他问我怎么了？然后就问我，你还要？
我点了点头。这样就给了那个good bye kiss。
有感觉勉强。:'(
为什么？


谢谢我的朋友，今天我笑得很开心，你们太可爱了拉！
姐妹~你们的关心我都收到了。:)
但我是真的很爱他。
我放不下。


希望明天他的考试会超顺利的！^^

他bbm 叫我bi 耶。开心的~
连晚安的通话他有对我说love you bi。
希望他是来至于爱的 :)

遠遠在一起 - 龔詩嘉

多一秒世界就会被淹没
你还像个巨人紧紧拥抱找
离开你变得渺小的自我
很想从此就卑微的渡过
失去真爱
只剩快乐残骸
已感觉不到任何的存在
还是爱着你
只是我们之间有了距离
远远爱着你
就算不能够在靠近
同样的天空下总会有你
站在时间面前没法撤退
我们像两颗告别的尘灰
记得拥抱时天地有多美
记得没有谁能将这摧毁
寻觅真爱
跌进人山人海
才发现没有线索可倚赖
不管我们之间什么距离
就算不能够再靠近
Ha……
就算在不同国度里
有你

...

我没有用。
他一bbm我，我就哭了。
他的关心是真的吗？
是爱我的关心还是内疚的关心呢？
我不懂。。他离我越来越远了。

这首歌。唱出我的心声。。。






张靓颖 - 如果这就是爱情

你做了选择 对的错的
我只能承认 心是痛的
怀疑你舍得 我被伤的那麽深
就放声哭了 何必再强忍

我没有选择 我不再完整
原来最后的吻 如此冰冷
你只能默认 我要被割舍
眼看著 你走了

如果这不是结局 如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信 你就是唯一
如果你听到这里 如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情 我难以抗拒

如果这就是爱情 本来就不公平
你不需要讲理 我可以离去
如果我成全了你 如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清 是我证明 我爱你

灰色的天空 无法猜透
多余的眼泪 无法挽留
什麽都牵动 感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人 原来不是我

我不要你走 我不想放手
却又不能够奢求 同情的温柔
你可以自由 我愿意承受
把昨天 留给我

Days 2

今天一大清早就起来了，
昨晚一也不懂几点睡着的。
哭哭下就这样睡着了。

我有找他~
但是还是忍不住哭了起来。
我狂打给朋友 （谢谢wenli）
她让我笑了:) 因为她的冷笑话。

过后我吃饱了就去看电视了。
看下看下眼泪会不然而然的流下。
妈咪突然打来找我。她问我跟他是不是吵架了。
我说不出， 眼泪就一直流下来了。
妈咪说等她回来再说。
我知道我会哭得更厉害的。

最后她开解了我。
她说他应该有压力吧，给他时间然后再问他。
但是我连他为什么跟我说这个我也不懂。
（他说：我们还年轻，我们还有很多事还每做。
我问：为什么说这个？
他说：就说啊，我们还年轻啊。不如我们给彼此两年时间？这样你可以做你要做的东西。
我就这样大哭了。）
过后，我妈咪要我好好跟他谈，
我就打给他了。

我问他为什么要说那个，是不是我对你不好？是不是你跟我一起你不开心？
他说： 不是，我跟你一起很开心。你很好。只是我们还年轻啊！
我就追问为什么
他说： 我对拍拖sien 了。

他的这句话，我的心痛到无法自拔。
意识是分手了吗？


我有求他不要离开。
但是他说： 不要这样，给我时间好吗？

我很心痛
很痛 很痛。。。

冲凉时，我开始后悔，
为什么我要提议给彼此一年的时间啊？
我只是试他的，怎么知道他答应了！

我快失去他了。
真的！
他在30/11/10就开始对我冷冷的了。
在昨天， 我在发脾气，要他哄我，但他没理我。
平时的他主动牵着我的 :'(
我说我要拍照，他用很不爽的语气回我说ok 啦ok 啦。
在唱歌时，
他一直暗示我跟他不相配。
就是唱歌后他说了那句话。


一个男朋友，看到女朋友哭成这样不会心疼吗？
我没有胃口吃，但是我妹逼我吃。
我的眼睛好累。
我的心好痛。
我的头脑都是他。
我的房间都是他送我的东西。


戒指是承诺。
不可以随便就送给女生的。
如果你给不了永远的承诺。
就不要跟她打勾勾。

我说我没事？
是骗人的。
现在的我想哭
但是哭不出来。
因为我的眼泪都好像流到没有了。
但是我的他
还是没有回心转意。。。。

你说我绝？
那你呢？
把我的心都彻底弄碎了。。。。

Heart Broken

很好的见面礼啊。
一个星期没见就给了我这句话。
答应我不说了。
但是今天又说了。
说是我问的，如果你不开始说，我也不会问啊 :(

我的心 碎了
连呼吸都很痛~
真想就这样就随风而去~


baby, 你这次真的很伤我
我撑不到啊~
我真的撑不到。



田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好


还是原来那个我
不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺
迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么 爱错就爱错
早点认错 早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
借来的都该还掉
还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用
每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么 什么都没有
早点看破 才看的见以后

我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
我总会把你戒掉

不舒服

头又痛
家又装修当中。
所以很多灰尘 :(
弄到我又伤风了。哎！
而且还满严重的！

然后呢，今天很不听话的吃了面啊！
弄得我的胃又坏蛋了！:(
超不舒服的 =_=


----------------------------
明天终于可以见我的bibi了！
因为他有考试
所以呢我们有一个星期没见了。
伤心啊~



好了。我最近玩了新game.
maple 的private server。
很可爱哦！
有兴趣可以去玩下~
它是usa的人开的~ :)

http://foreststory.info/

13112010 ♥

its been long time i never update my blog :)

now i m in holiday now ! weee*

going to pavillion to have our movie :)

there's no nice movie on show this few weeks, i think.

so i search for youtube and i show this !

they say awesome :)

this movie quite nice. but baby said its still okae ><"

what we had today?

1st time in this rest *for me

see what he write for me in bbm xD

hahahaha..

this my new casing for my phone :)

yesterday make till 3am neh @@ lols.

back home *

new ring for us :)

tq baby alot.. our 3 and half years anni present ♥

i love you baby boy ♥

happy holiday for me..

finally i sleep 24hours xD haha

Action City

ahah!

why my title is action city?

becos we spend alot money in there today.

faint..

so.. we having 2 movie for today in mid valley.

for this 2 movie comment is..

2 also nice

haha..

but the " Despicable Me" the yellow things is so cute lor !

so here the poster for 2 movie..

some picture for today.

ehem..

baby wanna buy the bearbrick series 20

he wants the iron man one..

but we never get it.... sad-nya..

here the stuff we get from there..

bearbrick series 20

S.Africa! we get 2 lols!

thats mean one is me one is baby lor =P

This 2 is from sunway one..

the uncle in the shop is so nice..

help me to guess which one is woody.

but 1st get jessie wor..

but 2nd also get woody le.. :D

Picture of us :)

Twilight Eclipse♥

it's been so long i never updated my blog :)

i m too busy with my college life , lols..

so, today going Jusco for moviesss

with my baby ♥

and also my sister and enen

we watched two movie today

Twilight Eclipse

my god! i been waiting so long for this movie :D

its awesome ! :)

the second movie is

"Predators"

i think this movie still okae la haha.

cox i think The Ruin is better :)

here some picture for today :)

after one of the movie,

with baby ♥ eat KFC

lols. but just ate potato xD

i also dont noe what i laughing at @@

lols

2 orang gila lols

my new lens eh

lols

tomolo need wake up at 4 :(

need to balik kampung to pray for my grandpa :)